Crippling.

I have a hardcore fear of cops.

More specifically, I live in fear of being pulled over by a cop. I think it's embarrassing, I'm practically crying before they get to my window, and it's just horrible. And since I drive a lot for work, I also can't really get a lot of tickets.

Tonight, on my way to dinner, I missed the turn for the restaurant and turned at the following light. I went to turn around in a Wal Greens parking lot, noticed an unmarked cop car in the parking lot, and freaked. Are you allowed to do that?? Will he pull out after me? WHAT ARE THE LAWS ABOUT THIS?!?!

So I parked the car and went into the store. Then this thought popped into my head: "I can't go back out without a bag. He'll know I was faking it." Thankfully, M&D have birthdays coming up, so I bought them their cards.

I never claimed to be a rational individual under duress.

After dinner, I am heading back to my hotel, and as I am turning left onto the road my hotel is off of, I see a cop car in the right turning lane. He turns two cars after me. I crawl along at the speed limit, and turn onto my hotel road. Cue cop car following me onto the road, which is a kind of crummy side road to nowhere. OH GOD. I turn into my hotel, cop right behind me (sorry for the play by play). What did I do?! Did I cut him off somehow? Did he see my out of state plates and think, 'I won't pull her over but I'll follow her and reprimand her.'? Starting to hyperventilate. I park. Apparently my hotel parking lot doubles as a rendez-vous point for cops, as I see mine circle around to meet up with three others and head out.

Do you see how crippling this fear is?? I cannot handle my life.

I need to get over this, stat.